I woke up wildly unhappy this morning. My back was aching, the sound of my alarm felt like stabbing through my brain, and the sky was as grey as my hair will be after yet another long-as-hell day at work today.
So, I decided to make myself my favourite curry for lunch. I made it, it was amazing, I was starting to feel some sense of happiness again, and then I let it “simmer” while chatting with my mom as I ate my oatmeal. 30 minutes later, I run back into the kitchen to find my curry burnt to a crisp. I proceeded to hold in tears and a burning desire to scream at the top of my lungs, and instead took a deep breath and left my house silently.
Now I am at work and my pants are uncomfortable, my backache feels like some god is trying to test my ability not to scream in public, and my inbox is filled with questions I honestly don’t even know the answers to.
SO… Needless to say I’m feeling just dandy this morning.
Silver lining? Tomorrow is going to feel freaking fabulous compared to today. I am healthy, I am alive, and I am making money that I will eventually use to move out for grad school.
I just need to suck it up until December and get through these days with a smile on my face instead of complaining about it. It’s just more difficult some days than others.
Hope your morning has bee better than mine.
– Dose of
Delight — complete and utter pessimism.